Forgive..Forgave...and Forgiven

I was reading somewhere yesterday and stumbled upon a very touching story. I just feel very strongly that i must cut out this story and post it in my journal as a remembrance for me in the future.

The story tells that two friends were walking through the desert. During some point of the journey they had an argument, and one friend slapped the other one in the face.

The one who got slapped was hurt, but without saying anything, wrote in the sand:

TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.

They kept on walking until they found an oasis, where they decided to take a bath.
The one who had been slapped got stuck in the mire and started drowning, but the friend saved him. After he recovered from the near drowning, he wrote on a stone:

TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE.

The friend who had slapped and saved his best friend asked him, "After I hurt you, you wrote in the sand and now, you write on a stone, why?" The other friend replied "When someone hurts us we should write it down in sand where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But, when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it.

"LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND AND

TO CARVE YOUR BENEFITS IN STONE.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them.

I definitely cant find myself doing that. I am more to forgive for a minute, forget for an hour and remembers for an entire life!

motherhood & me

Well, its been slightly more than five, six years or so dat im in this 'motherhood business'.

I started my full timing doing motherhood a couple of years back. I had to make a very difficult decision at that time. I had to sacrifice my career, my studies, my time, most of my friends and my hobby. No regrets. Although it didnt seem that long, but it seems like ages to me. But im very happy doing it although its a bit of energy cum fat burning process.

At first i was like 'can i do it, can i cope?'... i put in every best effort dat i can find inside of me to pull this through. As i hav no one to support or lend me a hand. I'm like a multitasker, aka wonderwoman. Most of the time i was very independent and it makes me feel a bit depressed. And now i can see some 'results'...with my hardworking effort. It really paid off. No waste. But there's still a long road ahead of me to go...i'll try to take it one at a time.

But being a young and inexperienced mother at dat time has taught me a lot of things. It brings out the confidence in me. It makes me more independent, braver and it taught me how to be a 'superwoman' (only without her powers). I've been in a situation where no one have gone to and came back standing stronger and stronger by the day.

Motherhood also taught me to be a little bit more feminine yet aggresive. I can handle situation better now. Whatever it is, you name it, been there done that. I'm sure i can handle anything that is 'thrown' to me now.

Before, i was quite timid, lack of confidence, cant stand up on my own. Thanx to motherhood, i am very happy with who i am now. Very proud of my childrens as well. Withouth them there's no sunshine in the sky, no moon to light up the night...

Three cheers to Motherhood!...hip hip hooray

Men...just cant live without them

Oh, how i wish it was true...

This one is for the ladies:

Do you ever notice how all women's problems start with MEN?
It finally makes sense now. I never looked at it this way before:

MENtal ilnesses
MENstrual cramps
MENtal breakdown
MENopause
GUYnocologist; and
when we have real trouble, its s HISterectomy...harhar


Well, to be fair, its the guys turn now:

WOMAN has MAN in it
SHE has HE in it
Mrs has Mr in it
LADY has LAD in it
MADAM has ADAM in it
HOSTESS has HOST in it
FEMALE has MALE in it...and so on, the list is never ending!

Honestly, i have nothing against these species called MEN, honest!!
So, no need to be proud...
GIRLS are always incomplete without BOYS!

Limited Time

It's been a few days dat i hav not made any entry in my journal.

I truly miss writing my thoughts and happenings from day to day. Its all because of too limit of a time dat i cant make these entries. I've got sooooo many things to do and catching up with, dat making my entries being postponed for a few days.

I hope i can catch up soon, maybe tomorrow or so. Right now, buzy with some other projects that really really need my attention very much. If i were to neglect this so called project, then everything will be ruined, flip flop. What a waste.

I think dat should be all for now. To be continued soon-

Short Funny Story

These are just two of my favorite funny stories that I have kept in my journal for some time and will read them when I need to cheer myself.


The Value of Managing Anger

There was once a couple who had been married for 60 years. They live somewhere in the west part of the country.

They kept no secrets from each other - except that she has a shoe box at the top of her closet that he was never to open. And then came one day when the old woman became terminally ill and had to be hospitalised. The doctor had told the couple that the wife might not live very long.

So the woman agreed that it was time to let her husband open the box. Oh boy, was he in for a surprise. In it were two crocheted dolls and $25,000. The husband was puzzled and shocked till his jaw almost kissed the ground.

She explained: "When we were to be married, my grandmother told me that the secret of a happy marriage was anger management. So if you ever got angry with your husband, you should crochet a doll first to calm down".

The old man was moved becoz there were only TWO dolls in the box. so he surmised his wife had only been angry with him twice in 60 years. He said: "Honey, what about the $25,000?"
She replied: "Oh, thats the money I made from selling the dolls I knitted".


Tales of the Unexpected

There was this guy on the side of the road hitch-hiking on a very dark and stormy night. The storm was so strong, he could barely see a few feet ahead of him.

Suddenly, he saw a car coming towards him, he flagged down the car to stop. He got in the car and closed the door, only then that he realized that there was nobody behind the wheel! The car starts moving by itself very slowly. The guy looks at the road and sees a curve coming his way. Scared, he starts to pray and begs for his life. And just before the car hits the curve, a hand appears through the window and turns the wheel.

The guy, paralysed in terror, watched how the hand appeared each time the car approached a curve. Gathering his strength, he gets out of the car and runs all the way to the nearest town. Wet and in shock, he goes into a pub, asks for two shots of tequilla and starts telling everybody about the horrible experience he just went through A silence enveloped everyone when they realized the guy was crying hysterically and wasnt drunk.

About a half hour later, two other guys walk into the same pub and one said to the other, "Hey look, that's the idiot that got into our car while we were pushing it!" chuckled-

Simply Humour

He said, she said....

He said: I dont know why you wear a bra, you've got nothing
to put in it
She said: You wear briefs, dont you?

He said: Do you love me just because my father left me a fortune?
She said: Not at all honey, I would love you no matter who left
you the money.

She said: What do you mean by coming home half drunk?
He said: Its not my fault. I ran out of money.

He said: Since I first laid my eyes on you, I've wanted to make
love to you in the worst way.
She said: Well, you've succeeded.

He said: What have you been doing with all the grocery money
I gave you?
She said: Turn sideways and look in the mirror.

He said: Why dont you tell me when you have an orgasm?
She said: I would, but you're never there!

He said: Shall we try a different position tonight?
She said: That's a good idea. you stand by the ironing board
while I sit on the sofa and fart.

'Spa Appointment'

Already called to make an appointment for the masseuse to come over to my house. The appointment will be on this Wednesday at 2pm. Can't wait for the actual 'spa-ing' day. Looking forward for a full 'servicing'.

It rained the whole day today, so there's not much activities that can be done, no shopping, no outing, nothing. The best thing to do right now is sleep. The weather's so cool, it makes me feel very lazy even to do a simple housework. Anyway, i've done what needs to be done first, like preparing a simple meal for the family - Chicken Rice!..harhar. After dat - off duty till tomorrow morning.

But just now, a neighbour of mine gave me a few dishes, noodle soup, muffins and curry puff. Thats the tradition she always does for the past five years during this holy month - the fasting month. For myself, sometimes i would return her with the same amount of dishes that she gave me..she also gave my next door neighbour who's Indian. Basically, its just a neighbourly 'thing' for her to give during fasting month and hari raya. Same goes with my Indian neighbour, we would trade cookies, or treats with each other and the other neighbours.

So, theres nothing to worry if after eating rice, still feeling hungry, there's still noodles and puffs to eat. What a great neighbour i have. Talking about food, makes me hungry..yum yum, but too sleepy and lazy to eat..hmm

Well, its past midnight now, and my eyes are very very sleepy, i dont think i can continue writing anymore. The words seems to be not flowing out, cant think quite straight, think i'll continue in the day or tomorrow. To be continued -

Rejuvenate

Hmmm...what a week. These past few days have been very hectic, rushing and painful for me. There's too many things to do and sooo little time. Deadlines to meet, commitments to attend to (compulsory) and my body have been crying for help...i need a massage, fast!

Well, i think its time for me to rejuvenate, cos every inch of my body aches whether i'm doing something of just lying down. Should i go to a spa or shld i 'invite' the spa to my home. If for my convenience, i think i shld 'invite' them over. It's only been over a month since the last time i had a good relaxing massage and pampering from the 'spa'. It was so damn good dat i fell asleep while being massaged. Even after it had finished, i didnt wake up. I didnt even reliase dat the masseuse had left.

It feels like im in a dream, so good, so relaxed, so peaceful without any disturbance, away from the outside world, as if, im in another world. How i wish i could stay here. A permanent resident of this relaxing and peaceful world..no commitments, no deadlines, no worries and no hurry. Just be happy and do nothing...impossible!!

How i wish, i could be pampered everyday, then i wouldnt complain dat much. And deadlines get to be done even before the due date and commitments will be tended to before it needs to. Oh, how great my life would be. Not only dat, how it would be nice, after the rejuvenation, i can have relax some more in a jacuzzi, lunch dinner by the pool then followed by shopping...too much, too much!! (earth calling qaxha, earth calling qaxha..harhar)

No time to waste, must make an appointment rite now!!

Holiday

I think the season for holidaying is coming soon - December, that's when the childrens are having their school break. I wonder if i'm for up one...hmm, not a bad idea cos it's been sometime now dat i have gone for a holiday wif my family.

If i remember well, the last time i went for a holiday was in...lets see...2002. We went to Genting Highlands as i have never been there before. It was during the Chinese New Year if not mistaken. We drove there and stayed for 3 days and 2 nights after which we went shopping at KL before heading home. that's about it i think.

The following year we went to KL again but to a niece's house. Not considered a holiday though cos we went to visit the niece recuperating after an operating. But we manage to drove up to Genting again, only this time just for the sake of fun. Then a bit of shopping and sightseeing again around and in KL before we went back to Singapore...quite boring actually. What to do, cos our main intention was to visit the niece. No plans of holidaying at all...boooring

When we reached home it was about 12midnight. We were welcomed by a great shocked of our lives, our house was broken into. Aaaaahh...the whole house was ransacked, jewelleries and cash we stolen. Clothes were thrown everywhere, the chest of drawers are all emptied. Even our thermometer was not spared! The police couldnt find any fingerprints and thus no one was apprehended..so the culprits are out there somewhere. Just hope and pray hard that they have been caught cos we have not receive any news from the Inspector incharge of this case till today.

So, whenever i got invited to go for a holiday or even the thought of leaving my house for more than a day, gives me the creeps. It will bring back bad memories, i can consider this as a phobia, holidayphobia to be exact. Still cant get over it after three years. So i'll doubt that we'll be going for a holiday this scholl break.

But there's no harm if i just plan ahead, who knows a miracle might happen and i finally got over it at the very last minute..pray hard really hard!

Giver or Taker

To give or to take, dat have always been the unanswered question. And there's also a kind of saying 'to give is better than to take'. It also depends on what i give and what i take.. but i've always been the not give and take type..harhar

I've been doing some soul searching lately cos of someone's remarks against me. Well i can still remember her exact crude remarks, me being selfish, inconsiderate and proud. Oh my gosh! where did all these craps come from? Obviously she doesnt know me well, cant blame her cos we just got to know each other at my daughter's school a few months back but we're not dat close anyway.

It all started two weeks ago when she asked for my help. She have some problems with her utility bills, her daughter's school fees, her phone bills and her husband who's in lock-up..besides dat she's also a smoker...so shd understand when there's no smoke, all hells break loose. I just redirected her to the proper channel cos i have some problems of my own at dat time. But she upset and angry and started throwing the crude remarks. I was like huh..and my jaw was like almost reaching the ground..its not dat i dont want to help her but i cant.

We had a tongue lashing fight wif me blasting to the maximum my super foul bowel directly to her face and left her ranting and mumbling or whatever else she's doing..it got me really pissed off. Here i am wif my own problems and then come this idiotic woman dumping her problems on my shoulder...who does she think she is??

Anyway got home, cooled down then start calling my other frens from the school to share my encounter wif dat idiot. Happens dat she had tried her luck wif one of my fren earlier. so i'm considered as her next victim, hope dat there'll be no other victims after this. My frens reassured me that the crude remarks have also been thrown at them, so no worries cos i'm nothing like what she described earlier..phew what a relief!

Because I know dat i would try to help those ppl i care for and those in need. So far i've never disappoint anyone. Maybe its just her approaching me on the wrong day at the wrong time. Well, too bad. So now i know dat i'm NOT selfish, NOT inconsiderate and NOT proud. So i can stop the search, at least i can use the time to search for some good blog sites..harhar

Where r u $$$$

The year's coming to an end wif just abt a month and a half away. How time flies very fast and so little things have been done over this period. With festive seasons and birthdays to celebrate., where am i going to find extra cash..dont forget the wedding invitations..sigh~

Just last sunday i had spent a hundred bucks on marketing + shopping for the childrens clothings. With the prices going up and up and up..no wonder my allowances keep getting insufficient, sometimes it 'dried' up before i got the next allowance...i'm not thrifty nor a miser but there's always something to buy or to pay for in advance...dats why i end up 'bankrupt' most of the time.

First of all there's the groceries and marketing. Then the childrens clothing, although i dont shop every month for their apparels, it seems dat the childrens outgrow from their clothes vey fast. Just three months back, i bought my son a new pair of trousers and shirt and now he's complaining dat its already very tight...and the girl has grown taller making all her skirts and jeans shorter. And their shoes / sandals..their feet grows very fast too. There's always an excuse to shop for new clothings and shoes for the children (and me..harhar).

What abt me, i still hv to tend to my monthly needs..wat a nuisance. Now wif the festive seasons and birthdays and weddings...aarrghhh!! Deepavali on the first of November, then followed by Hari Raya on the third, afterdat there's birthdays till December and then comes Christmas and my best fren's birthday on the next day and weddings in between these holidays. Of course not forgetting the New Year.I think my migraine is starting to attack...touchwood..hopefully its just a normal headache.

Yesterday i bumped into Rina, she ask whether i could lend her fifty bucks...and my bruder also just called to ask for the same...besides dat there's also the children's a month upfront school fees for next year to be paid that already comes to one hundred and fifty...oh boy...money money money..why dont u grown on trees. Unlike the money plant, its just a name which doesnt bore anything...

Oh gosh, the headache is killing me. I think i'd better pop some pills and get some rest first. Maybe i'll continue writing later. Or who knows i have a great solution to these money woos..cross my fingers and toes..better still bind them..gulp!

Matters of The Heart

I vouch to give you my heart and soul...blah blah blah...yada yada yada...till death do us part...dats wat newlywed couples do on their wedding day. I swear to you and you swear to me...

Yeah rite...not until a year or two later... dat he will swear you and you swear him upside down inside out in the heat of an argument. Matters of the heart is a very very sensitive issue...mind you...nothing you can play or fool around with. See wat happens when you betray the heart...the brain becomes malfunction and the soul is gone...snatch by the devil...prompting you to do evil and stupid things to your partner, making you his crime partner.

Its all in the papers actually, almost everyday you will read such stories relating to broken betrayed heart...i read them almost everyday. Its a pity story actually...man loves woman..get cheated by her...ego gets big..cant take the blow...and finish her off. Whereas the woman's part..she loves the man wholeheartedly...got ditched over some young beautiful and sexy chick...got depressed...blame everything on herself for not trying harder to be as beautiful and sexy as the young chick..ends up-found lying on the block's void deck or on the toilet floor.

I dont understand why they hv to go through those miserable moments alone or they hv to take those stupid actions...its really a waste of a gd life...but for us its an extra space of oxyen to breathe in...harhar

Is it their ego or their mentallity that is not strong or stable enough to make them think straight...But talking is not as easy as being in their shoe...but i'll bet dat if it were me...i'll start off wth screaming and shouting my head off after finding my partner is having an affair...after dat i'll either dump him before asking him to compensate the years i've wasted my time with him or i'll try to give him a second chance. There's a saying 'fogive and forget'...but in my case...i'll forgive him but never forget!! How's dat rather than taking silly and stupid actions.

My principle hav always been very straight and simple...if you love me...be faithful and honest to me...but likewise tell it to my face and we can end it nicely and peacefully so dat nobody gets hurt and we can always be on talking terms if we were to meet somewhere.

As for myself, i'm a one woman man!! No gimmicks!!

Cartoons Cartoons

I woke up dis morning quite late cos it was raining and furthermore i slept at about 3.30am...wat was i doing til the wee hours of morning..wat else surfing and reading blogs!

Anyway, took my bath then settled my children..so we sat down and watched cartoon...my favorite channel..especially Disney Channel's..Mickey Mouse and Friends...favourite show since i was a kid myself. Suddenly my daughter and my son started fighting over the tv remote control..she wanted to watch Kids Central and my son wants to watch Cartoon Network..hmmm
kids...wat do they not fight over for..

It all brings back to my own memories of how it used to be me and my brother doing the same...but in those days..there werent any color tvs...only black and white pictures...how sad were those days...plus no remote...u hv to manually change the channel by turning the knob clockwise or anti-clockwise...we would always fight...i mean fight...pillow fight or throwing anything we can catch hold of...just becoz of a silly cartoon show.And usually my brother would win...

Well, the tv itself is already so old til sometimes the sound will 'disappear'...so we have to bang on it or under it just to 'recover' the sound back...harhar. so when color tvs are 'in', we still didnt hv the chance to watch color cartoons cos my parents couldnt afford it.

So my brother and I would go over to our neighbours house to watch tv cos theirs is color!! Not until six months later, we were surprised by our father bringing back a big box with a color tv inside..we were so terribly happy dat we didnt leave the house the whole day to go out and play like we normally do.

But like i say, my brother is always the first to get his hands on the tv or to 'control' it, i would say...and i would always get the leftover...pity me.But its different wif my children, my son would always win any 'match' and left the sister crying. But eventually, he would give in to his sister and all is merry again!!

Fourthbaby

Today is Saturday 8 October 2005.
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